The Power of Oneself

Over time, I have begun to realize that the power that one needs to seek within oneself is something people do not do very often. I have always been the sort of person to rely on other people for my happiness or waiting for companionship or praise to fully love myself. But over time and experience I have realized that loving oneself doesn't come with external approval, it comes from within. For other people to love you, it is necessary to love yourself. And I know it's easy to say and very hard to accomplish but taking the first step is essential. I just realized that completely depending on anyone- may it be your boyfriend or best friend- doesn't prove to be fruitful always. Because the hard reality is at the end of the day it is you and only you who has to face the challenges that the world has in store for you. No one is going to pull your hand through it. You got to pull yourself through it.
This was a message my mom used to always tell me but I never understood its full meaning till today. Today, when I realize that nothing is there forever. Things will come to end, or even if they don't, the power and dynamics of companionship changes at different stages of life. Just when you're beginning to get used to someone, they will suddenly surprise you with an emotional jolt or disappearing act. And then you feel lost. But if you're connected to your inner self there is nothing that can make you feel empty or lost. The power to make yourself happy lies within you. Explore it. I'm starting to explore within myself. Now it's your turn.

Deconstructing Life Around and Within Me: Is it Enough?

Deconstructing Life Around and Within Me: Is it Enough?

Is it Enough?

So I have been in a very pensive mood since last night. For some reason, I felt a strange void within me, like a feeling of being unfulfilled. I am in a world class university, in a city that people would die to live in, living a privileged and envious life. Yet, I feel as though I am not doing justice to this life of mine. I have finally figured out my life and the way I want it to shape up. I have figured out my academics and am continuing the job I had taken up last semester, yet I feel like I'm not doing something essential. After reflecting on it for sometime, I figured that I am not doing anything besides academics- I am not doing something I am passionate about. Yes, I am obsessed with nutrition as my passion and am working toward it, but am not developing a talent or honing a hobby. The fulfillment that doing something outside of one's daily duties gives you, is an entirely different satisfaction. I had decided last semester that I would be more involved. Unfairness in dance teams let me down and I was discouraged all over again. But I gave up. Big mistake. I have to keep going on, relentlessly. I am getting into a profession that is going to require undying hard work and patience. If I give up at the smallest hint of failure my survival in this field of work is doubtful.
So I have decided to step up and make my dreams reality! If dance teams don't happen, I should go for clubs, for events, for anything else my vast campus offers! And not give up (like I did my ballroom dance after one disappointing class!). Because in life, for success, giving up is not an option.